Is it coming or not?
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I guess the question I really want to ask is “Am I pregnant or not?”. This is day 30 (estimated) cause I dont really remember when my period came last month. This morning I woke up with a heavy feeling in my abdomen and was certain it would be here. But when I wiped there is just a faint brown stuff. I hate having to obsess about this so much. For god’s sake I would like to be pregnant so I can stop the obsession and just relax and enjoy the pregnancy.
I suspect it will come today. And once again my hopes will be dashed. At this point I feel angry and irritable and frustrated. I just want to be pregnant. I feel like throwing a tantrum. I just want my world to get back into perspective. Will that ever happen? I think I really need to stop trying to get pregnant.
Two months to go til the wedding. Perhaps I ought to make a genuine effort not to think about baby or pregnancy til we come back from the honeymoon. Can I even do that? Heck, can I even go a single day without thinking about being pregnant or wanting a baby!
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February 6th, 2009 at 6:38 pm
Becoming Pregnant
Oh my Gosh you sound like I did when I went threw ALL that. I came across your blog and it broke my heart for you because I have been there like lots of women. you would be late it seems like every month (even if you were not) just because you wanted to be pregnant so bad, and lite periods had to mean there was a better chance. and MY HECK all the pregnancy tests I took. just to break my heart every single month. God, there was so many times in my life I had baby fever. (BAD) I would tourcher myself too though, like sit around and watch baby stories on TLC, birth of babies on discovery health, anything having to do with being pregnant or haveing a baby, and to top it all off if I wasn’t watching something about it, I was day dreaming all the time about haveing a baby and being a mom. I remember just laying on the couch every day not wanting to do anything usless i was looking up stuff about getting pregnant. Ok so maybe I went a little overboard in that part of my life, but I think alot of people might, its like you start to become obsessed with it. and I may even have had a little depression. but when you want something SO bad thats sometimes all you can think about.
I wish you All the best and your in my prayers.
Here are some books that I believe helped me get pregnant. oh and I now have 4 Awsome children. and thats not to rub in faces its to let you all know ive been there, something will work for you and dont give up.
all the best to you.