We’re back – and trying to get pregnant again
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“Hope is not a dream but a way of making dreams become reality.”
Well, it has been almost 2 years since I started this website and more than a year since I last posted. So I guess I had best update you on what has happened in the last year.
Hubby and I decided to stop trying until after the wedding. We had the most beautiful perfect wedding in June 2007, had a glorious honeymoon in Hawaii and planned to start trying again in October. Of course every month I tried to make sure that we did the baby dance around ovulation and each month when it was time for my period I waited hopefully for its non-appearance. Failure each and every month. That dreaded spot followed by the bright red flow each and every time.
Finally, mercifully October rolled around and….hubby said he was not ready. Well! I just exploded. Totally. Our life was hell for a few months well. I just wanted this so badly. I felt so betrayed. He felt that he was still getting accustomed to all the changes that were involved in married life and that we had not quite settled into it yet – we were not ready for a baby he said. Having been ready for a baby myself for so many years, I just could not understand this thinking at all.
We hurt. And we hurt badly. This, I have discovered, is a common result of trying to conceive. Many months later, he confided that he just could not deal with my extreme disappointment every time we tried the latest thing and it failed. I realized that it has consumed my life, my thoughts, my marriage. And not in a good way.
In the end however it was good for us and an important turning point in our marriage, bringing home to each of us that we were a partnership and that both parties had to want to move in the same direction and that each person’s needs much be considered and due respect. In January we began trying again, but more of that tomorrow.
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